Jbian is gone for good. OH so Sad.
Yvonne is cute. She asked this guy on how to learn swimming.
Yvonne : How do you actually learn swimming?
Guy : I throw u at the deep end of the pool , and you will learn how to swim eventually.
Yvonne : Ooooh. So that means if i jump down the building, i'll learn how to fly?
I still find her reaction amusing after so long.
I thought F.I.R's latest Cd's crap. But then again, after listening it repeatedly, I realised its actually good. JJ Lin included. That cute lil cutie pie.
Saving money spree. No one should ask me to sing k at night. Unless K lunch. I am POOR. utterly. So dont tempt me. NONONO.
Puked yesterday. Felt so sick.
Mr Cleaner went for supper and never came back. Idiot.
Vocal lessons today. Dont feel like singing today.
i'm so sad inside me... I don't know why.
back from thailand! bought loads of stuffs. amazing thailand indeed. hairclips are all less than 20baht.( 90 cents ) .. and they are really nice, big , furry and extraordinary.
bought all these at day 1. the hair clips i bought during day 2,3, and 4 has yet to be taken pictured of.
Earrings are darn cheap too. the button earrings really seduced me. THEY ARE SOOO NICE.
I can only thank myself for being smart. i chose all the value for money stuffs. like in sg , its at least 4.90/pair.
oh they have this reallly cuuute thing as a dessert there. forogtten what its called. but it looks kinda cute. i remembered eating them when i was young.. but now i have a deeper impression of it.
the colourful stuffs are actually jelly and inside is actually filled with sesame paste. quite nice. givei t a try if you guys go there.
however, sad to say.. the clothes there are quite a disappointment. they have loads of fake roxy, fake billabong, fake adidas, fake bathing ape.. and the most obvious.. fake vondutch.. but i did get a few fake adidas shirt though. just for casual wear. heh. i wanted to get a pair of bapesta.. because in sg, the bapesta shoes are quite limited and the patterns are almost all the same. but sad to say, you cant really see real stuffs in thailand even if you have the money to buy. oh not to mention, they've got loads of LV and gucci too. And obviously, they're fake too.
the hotel i lived in is quite spooky. always felt some eerie feeling whenever im alone. but i thought im just the only one feeling that way.. but unfortunately, my sis had the same feeling. my mum said my sis and i are just dreaming and all.. and she just advised us to pray. when we reached singapore, my mum told my sis and i that the hotel we stayed might be haunted.. coz once a fire broke out at that particular hotel and more than 800 people died .. many singaporeans died there too. then she said she didnt want to scare us, so she only told us when we came back to singapore. she said she dont feel anybody touching her.. but she just felt very cold when she's alone in the toilet. hmmms.. scary.
i never knew thai boys are good-looking too. hey im serious. even bellboys can look damn good. even the roadside stalls guy selling drinks and food, some of them are really good looking. minus their dress sense and ugly hairstyle. i mean how well u want them to dress when they're doing those hard chores everyday right? wooo. anyway, in short.. thailand is nice. its worth going there again.
gonna go to work today.. sigh sighhh. tired. tired. tired. bubye.
packed my stuffs like hell yesterday. coz ya noe, im moving house.. then my mum made an appointment with the salvation army to come and take the unwanted yet usable stuffs away. its really alot man. like 14 bags and still counting. and i mean.. 14 BIG bags. and ive still yet to pack my stuffs away...
went to work yesterday. sat in the shop all ALONE because von and evanne is not here and rachel is busy tending to her customers.. so all i did in the shop the whole damn day is just smsing my friend and smsing and smsing and read a book. sighhh...
then met my mum for dinner. in between edwin called. asked me out to sing k. so gotta rush my meals and then meet him , jennette and the rest for kbox session till 2am. im supposed to meet my friend online.. i dont know if i kept him waiting.. feel so bad.. = (
sang loads of stupid songs yesterday like songs by machi didi. and then they said they didnt know i can sing children songs so well. wth. machi didi's song is quite difficult to sing ok. what children? assholes.
i wanna learn to sing alex and stephy's hou sum hou bou. actually hao hao lian ai is so much nicer and easier. but bloody kbox dont even have that song up yet. can you imagine, even peace centre's indecent ktv lounge has pingpung's sha ta sei and 2r's wo men he chang de ge. and the most organised bloody kbox dont have it. wah lao. they dont even have JJ's yi qian nian yi hou can?!!?! WTH. JJ LIN leh . idiots man.
i met this guy from KL's LWSSOM. hes in the performing grp and blablabla. then he said he wanna be a singer but he said no matter how well he sings or how good he is, he cant be a singer because hes already 26 this year. but he really looks like a superstar man. the way he looks and the way he dresses. cool cool. hehehe. hes jealous of my age. awww. hahahaha.
Mr cleaner said my voice very cute. basket. send him the song i sing he keep laughing. asshole. from LGF very good is it. HUH HUH HUH . and no. LGf dont stand for lets get funky! it stands for Little Green Frog. hahahaha. SO CUTE.
i gotta go take a bath now and then wait for my mum to go to lavender to get my passport done. havent changed the stupid picture yet. arghh.. so lazy. hopefully in the meantime my friend will come online.. because today's his off day.. and we have something in common, we like to be free! thats why we're not schooling. YAY. hahaha. bye peeps.
Was packing my old stuffs and i came upon this love crap that i wrote in secondary two for this guy i was with for a whooping seven months. heh.
The way i feel
The way i feel for you, I'm real.
Once on the dark night, you shone through the night and brought me bright light,
Oh how you took me as i am, so caring and..
Loving you can be.. All these, this once happened to me.
Without you, i don't know what to do.
You mean the world to me, which is more beautiful.. than the sea.
I gently feel the breeze blowing past me,
Which can be, compared to thee.
Soft, gentle oh how great this feeling is to me,
I'm only complete with you by my side...
And nothing else matters, even till the day i die.
I seek in you, beauty of all.
You are the best. Bestest of all.
For you i know you have no flaws,
I'm starting to love you, love you even more.
Tonight, i'm gonna take you to somewhere special where we can share our joy and sorrows.
When i'm near you, i'm never lonely.
I dont know what to do so i just pray, pray and pray.
For loving you, I dont know what price i'll pay,
But if i were to choose again,
I won't ever regret being chosen you.
Even if the price to pay will take my life away.
Let the world stop turning, Make the sun stop burning.
Let all stars shine, for now i know the brightest is mine.
Yes, i'm in love with you, there is nothing i can do.
You descended down to me when i was in the falling rain.
Your impact on me, is very great.
Oh hell, Cant you see?
You are just like the rainbow after rain,
You always shine through and heal my pain.
When my body is weak,
All i would ever seek would be you.
For your prescence is always sweeter than anything that matters to me.
I can never close my eyes and sleep peacefully with you in mind.
I can only lie to others about how i feel,
But deep inside, I'm nothing more than just weak.
From the day i met you boy,
I knew you would be my special someone.
I cant control myself because your just too beautiful.
You make me so happy even when im down.
We have had our ups and downs,
Please, dont sacrifice the love we have found.
Without you, i'd rather be dead.
I cant keep this inside me anymore, for i hafta soar.
Ain't life a revolving door?
When i am feeling low,
One thing i know is that at least you make my heart glow.
I can hear you calling me from across the sea.
I know our love can stand the test of time,
I believe our future holds, a place where love begins.
And if the world falls apart, i will know deep in my heart,
the only thing that mattered had came true..
Baby i love you.
Whew whew. My comp hanged halfway while typing. luckily i am smart this time and i clicked' recover post'. phew.
loadsa things happened. i met this guy whom i bought shoes from in jb. woo he asked me out for movie. YAY. haha and he said hes HAPPY to see me online. wow. hahaha.
vocal lessons yesterday. oh so fun. got my recording playback already. sounds so stupid. and my teacher keep asking me to accept the fact that my voice is like that. ahhh.
off to thailand this friday. i DONT want to receive smses like, WHY ARE U MISSING, ARE U DEAD, YOU MIA AHH. so now i ANNOUNCE. i'm off to thailand. after reading this, dont come smsing me like, HELP ME BUY LV BAG. and all those shit because im not going to hongkong . its THAILAND. OK? AND NO. i'm not helping or volunteering to help the tsunami victims or whatever. its just merely a HOLIDAY. soo dont be so inquisitive like as though im gonna go and never come back again. i know you guys will miss me. but its just 4 days ok? hahahahaha.
bubyee!
went sentosa today.
im like a red lobster now. and i mean red. i can see the linings of the bikini on my body now.
please pray that my skin dont start peeling like some dumbfuck tomorrow.
kbox session tomorrow.
awaits.
Let's state some stuffs about me yes?
10 ways to win my heart.
1. You gotta be a male.
2. You must be able to tolerate my horrible singing.
3. You must love Burberry perfumes too.
4. You must be taller than me.
5. You must not be fat.
6. You must not be hairy.
7. You must not be infront of the computer 24/7 playing games.
8. No. No Xbox or PS2 either.
9. You must be caring, understanding, patient and nevertheless, Mr.Nice guy.
10. You must be able to take it when you witness my huge appetite and my huge collections of certain stuffs.
9 random things i do everyday
1. I eat.
2. I pee or shit.
3. I bathe.
4. I wear clothes.
5. Ungarments too.
6. I listen to music-s.
7. I sing.
8. I walk.
9. I breathe.
8 random things you can give me on my birthday.
1. Porter bag.
2. Bapy bag is fine too.
3. Burberry perfume. ( the bigger bottle one please. )
4. Air ticket to Hong kong.
5. Japan is fine too.
6. Hairclips. ( cute, furry and big ones preferably.)
7. Earrings.
8. Trendy thongs from Topshop.
7 things you should know about me.
1. I procrastinate ALOT.
2. I hate sunny days.
3. I love being as white as sheet. No tanning please. NO. Stop asking me to tan myself.
4. I am fat.
5. I am the biggest fan of Stefanie Sun.
6. I love my mum ALOT.
7. I hate night life.
6 things i wanna do before i die.
1. Witness the 7 wonders of the world.
2. Earn my first billion dollars.
3. Have a dinner with Stefanie Sun.
4. Visit my ex-dog be it dead or alive.
5. Kill the woman who accused me of stealing a bloody $3 ring.
6. And kill her the 2nd time.
5 ways to brighten up my day.
1. See me and say, " Hi Leng Lui! ".
2. Or " Hi Yeng Lui! " .
3. Strangle yourself till your face gets red.
4. Offer me ciggs.
5. Tell me ive won Toto.
4 things i have the fetish for.
1. button earrings.
2. sunflower.
3. hairclips and more hairclips.
4. burberry perfumes.
3 things i wanna own.
1. A bungalow in hong kong.
2. A ferrari in singapore.
3. I still want my poodle Bobby back. I miss you so. : (
2 things i hate about people.
1. Dont dig your nose infront of me.
2. No scratching of armpits infront of me.
1 person whom i love.
1. Me myself and i.
You Are: Death of the Endless
You are Death, the second oldest of the Endless,
the seven great incarnations.She is, in outward appearance, a goth with wild
unkempt hair and slightly punkish clothes. But
she is far beyond that mere description. Her
function is much like the "Reaper,"
to collect the souls of mortals as they die.
She is perky, optimistic, and bright, but she also
has a serious side, which shows when she is
angry or upset. She can become quite frustrated
with her brother, when he is being singularly
foolish.
People fear her because of what she is, and this
can get her down sometimes. But they also love
her, without ever truly knowing why.
What Sandman Character Are You?
bad bad day. problems starting pouring over me ever since 2 days ago. my sis's handphone got confiscated and my mum and i have to like rush down to cjc to get the matter solved. this incident got my mum damn pissed. and when my mum's pissed, she'll vent her anger on me and i'll be pissed... so so so.. when we reached the staff room, those staffs asked us whats the problem. my mum said, " this teacher ridiculously confiscated my daughter's handphone just to boost his ego as a HOD. " and blah blah blah.. the problem went on.. my sis starting crying like a big-crybaby and everything.... and all i gotta do is just stare and stare at the teacher sarcastically. aiight .. this matter is like 2 days ago.. yesterday was another terrible day.
- got accused of stealing a bloody $3 ring.
went clarke quay with evanne, yvonne and rachel. we wanted to go and find some detailed stuffs to complete our million dollar making plan. then i saw this box of rings thats quite coooool. so i wanted to get just ONE for myself. but in the end i didnt get it coz i figured that the pathetic diamond will drop out from the ring oh-so-easily. then in the end the salesgirl asked me if ive chosen anything and i said no.. i dont want it anymore. then she asked her colleague over and she said one ring is missing. she sorta think its me. which is duhh. coz im the last person who touched that box of rings. but her colleague didnt bother. i heard her colleague said something like.." nvm la.. one only. " kinda stuffs. but she still think its me. the worst thing is that, she dont even want to check my bag or whatever. she just keeps staring and staring AND staring. what a fucking bitch man. i wish she will fucking check my fucking bag. and then i can just fucking laugh at her for fucking blaming the wrong person. i HATE SIMPLY HATEEEEE being accused. and now she still fucking thinks im a bloody fucking thief. i tell you, dont let me see you again or i'll fucking FUCK U UPSIDE DOWN. ARGGgHHHGHGH...
another incident.. i bought these 3 other rings from another place in clarke quay. and one of it is already cracked! arghhh. waste my money plus time going there man. and i cant be bothered to go and change it or whatever already coz its really troublesome to go all the way there.. pisseddd.
anyway, the being innocently accused incident is already enough to make yesterday a day to be pissed about..
had vocal lessons yesterday. new teacher. new teaching method. new learning way. i feel that hes much better than the previous teacher. well, everyone thinks so. loyce suspended classes for a month. left 5 people in that pathetic class. whew. my new teacher has got a real nice voice. he sings mandopop like a angmoh singing it. hahahaha. soo cute. oh well oh well. i think the whole class must be thinking why am i ALWAYS picking on hanwei. its personal grudges. you guys may see it like a joke of the day or something. but i really ' hate ' hanwei for some personal reasons. and HE SHOULD KNOW WHY. but hes just too bloody embarrassed or whatever to say it. and he keeps thinking im just laughing and joking at him coz my attitude's like that. asshole. arghh.
aiight. i wanna skip church today. lazy to go there.. and i definitely dont wanna praise God in such a pissed manner. toodles~
so i did owe gerald a big fat kiss. due to inevitable circumstances, and brainless me for not bracket-ing ( selected people-s only.)
almost everyone got the first question wrong. yes im a Tan, but a Yang now. surprise?
so so, lets talk about the wants and dont wants in life. the cynical us, the self-centred us, the everything we want or not want to be aiight?
i know i know, there are many kind hearted and good ol' souls surrouding me and guiding me to the best path of life i should ever take. but somehow, i feel all of you guys are just crappy idiots.. looking down on a bloody useless school quitter. i know i know, im a school quitter, my future is unsured of.. i have no future, i live by the days and hours as it just ticks by. but c'mon, dont you even think i have a brain? i am very sure of what i wanna do in the future. its just that i dont wanna share it with you. so dont think i just wanna quit school for the fun of it and leave myself dangling in the air. i DO feel that i am dangling in the air somehow, at least for now, im beginning to get worried for myself. but why do you guys seems more worried than me? please dont get me wrong.. its not that i doubt your care and concern, its just that, i doubt MY worth. am i really worthy for you to actually care about? am i really WORTH that 50k that you want me to get a private diploma? i dont need a diploma. dont waste your money and time. its 50k .. i prolly need another 50 years to repay you that amount. please dont be silly.
sometimes i wish i'll be like her. smart, talented, pretty, nice, proud, arrogant(minus her unfortunate dress sense.). when she walks, the air just simply flows to her direction. tell me, even air are biased. i know, the grass is always greener on the other side. and we can never learn to be satisfied. maybe even till the day we close our eyes and say goodbye. when can we ever learn to treasure what we have and cherish it?
i know sometimes i may be really arrogant, self-important, self-centred.. i may have hurt many many people around me unknowingly just because of my cannot-be-bothered attitude. i know ive lost alot of friends because i just simply dont care. i know some of you closer friends or people around me who thinks im important in your life have already started questioning yourselves, " if one day i die, will amelia even shed a tear for me? " .. i know i'm stubborn.. and i never want to be close to you when you want to be close to me. i always choose to get close to people who are hard to be close with. now i tell you my answer? no, i wouldnt cry for you even if your gone one day.. because, although i may be important to you, but you are not important to me. i know its scary, but its a fact. but MAYBE, once in a purple moon, i will think of you.. and start to cry. you should know, i dont cry on the spot just at that point of time. it may be scary or quite unbelievable, but the fact is, thats me. = )
stumbled upon a big box of seashells. used to collect them when i was younger. feel like going to the beach soon. anyone wanna join in the boring fun? feel free to approach me !
and no shawn, i cant go ktving anytime soon. i cannot sing for the next 2 bloody months. stop adding salt to my wound now will you? it hurts terribly( as in my throat. ). like a huge blue-black in my throat when i just touch my throat gently. sigghhh.
everyone, try this quiz of mine when ur free aiight? the people who did it said its tough. so the person who get 100% shall get a big wet kiss from me ok? hhahhaa. here it goes- http://www01.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz_IM.php?quizname=050406232617-330214&email=&c=0&a=01
try it try it! ciaoS~
a bleeding finger, a japanese flag.
bored. tired. my eye lids are so heavy now. anyway, ive been listening to lee hom's forever love ever since .. i reached home. its a real nice songgg. i strongly recommend everyone to download or buy the cd for the sake of THAT song.
yvonne, rachel and i have a million dollar making business plan. not gonna jot it down here just in case anyone steals OUR idea.
when i was walking home, it was raining cats and dogs. then i saw this ah ma fall down right infront of me... like 10metres away. then everyone starting crowding around her to help her and everything. and when the green man starts to shine, she couldnt get up and cross the road. poor thing. may God bless her.
my patch of red hair on my hair is faded like anything, gonna dye it all black. or just dye that particular spot gold. comments anyone?
today i packed all my stuffs that i wanna throw away. man its really alot of stuffs. my primary school ART FOLIO! goodness. when i was P4 my art folio was filled with a HUGE tweety bird.
yeah.. so i threw all my stuffs in the first level because theres a palce for u to dump ur rubbish. and when i reached home, everything is left in the open. someone have actually went through all my stuffs and i see only SOME of the stuffs left. and i see my lil' tweety bird lying there.. sigh sigh sigh...
well, actually loads of stuffs have happened. but im really lazy + tired + lazy + tired... so yeah.. goodbye for noww.
just got back from the doc. doc said my throat have something growing. told me not to shout or sing too much now. depressed. what would i do if i cant sing anymore? god. please dont do this to me.
shagged. just came back from ktv with my vocal teacher, simon, hanwei and loyce. man.. junjie can really sing fuggin' well. im so bloody jealous. hes really really really REALLY good.
today lessons are REAL fun. we went to the recording studio to record this particular song we've learnt. helluva cool okie. to wear that headphone in that studio and sing to that special microphone. wee hoooo. so kok leong's gone and the person who'll be taking over him is this guy named wei jian. he looks sooo fierce okie. but his wearing this adidas shirt i always liked guys to wea. the background is blue and the adidas sign is in orange. simple and nice. right? but definitely not THAT nice on girls.
i watched the eye 10 alone.. All alone. poor me. my mum bought the pirated vcd of that. so i watched it. but its not even scary. its more of a comedy man. its damn funny. hehh. but it sorta make me reflect too. like when i was younger i used to do lotsa witchcraft and i even wanted to really go through the rites to be a true wiccan. scary. well im still interested in knowing more bout wicca but something is just stopping me. well.. prolly.. my guardian angel. = )
i dont know if the show's true. other than heaven, earth and hell.. there are many many many other dimensions which we've yet to find out. and if your not careful, you might just fall in that particular dimension and you'll never ever come out again. which makes me remember this movie ' into the mirror' , caught it with kelvin long ago... where people get stucked in the mirror and all. do all these really exist? i really really wanna know. i dont know why i always wanna find out things which have yet to be found out and all. hmmms..
i saw kenneth in long john yesterday. and i realise ive been doing something so damn stupid since like 1 year ago. well ok, there are many many kenneth-s i know. and 2 of them look kinda alike or should i say.. i got blurred by them. kenneth lee and kenneth tan. kenneth lee is a very very guai kia who wear specs and very serious bout studying. kenneth tan is the more happening one. but i always thought kenneth tan dont have a bloody friendster account. or maybe i should say, he always had. just that i didnt realise. then all along ive been thinking.. " wah wtf kenneth lee changed so much sia .." upon viewing kenneth TAN's profile. so ALL ALONG.. its always the other way round. kenneth lee is still nerdy and kenneth tan is still as happening. like fuck. ive been cheated all the way since like when man. fucking stupid me.
been listening to julian's song really really frequent nowadays. im like starting to feel that hes got this talent. hmms..
yesterday was april fools and john send me this sms.
" wanna get a free handphone with a free line for the rest of your life? Log on to www.stopdreaming.com ! Happy april fools! "
so i forwarded it to many of my friends. and this is what i get for a reply from MANY.
" Log on to www.stopdreaming.com to find yourself dreaming. "
I dont really understand it. is there suppose to be a particular meaning?
today 2 lil boys came and asked for my number in the bloody mrt train. they made so much noise. and made me embarrassed. they did something like this.
boy A : u go la!!
Boy B: no! u go!
Boy A: U!!!!! ( push boy B to me )
( i can hear them though im listening to my mp3 )
Boy B : HEHE. my friend want to know you.
( take down earphone. )
Me: HUH?
Boy B: my friend say he wanna know u.
Boy A: EH!!!! ITS U HOR. NOT ME.
Boy B: shut up la!
ME: (looks around.) Sorry ah. ( plucks back earphone. )
eeee. i hate this kinda chicken guys. ARGH.
I saw daphne khoo in my school today. She's so cute! but her neck is damn short for her body. ( for the suckers: She's one of the sg idol finalist. )
finally collected my nail cert. FINALLY. after tonnes of procrastination. whew. relieved. one load off my back. but again, i ordered the photo i took with one of the instructor and i gotta like go and pay and collect it again. argh.i hate far east. just too many stupid memories there. him, him, him and another him. shitters.
didnt go to work today. made joanne waited like shit. but i think she's ok with it coz i think she's used to it already. heh.
aiight i needa take a bath.. talk to my eye candySSSSS and sleep!
POOF.
地铁的声音，
没办法不让我不失眠。
用失眠还来一天的假期，
真的令老天爷那么不开心吗？
一直没给我失眠问题的地铁，
竟然在今天。。。
趁我正睡熟时，
把我挖起来。。。
地铁啊。。。
你好调皮哦！
真要那么做，
来让我知道你的存在吗？
好不服气。。。
连你也要抢镜。。。
好累。。。
你。
不要闹了。。。
难道你不累吗？
