Tuesday, March 21, 2006 @4:41 PM
These few days have been quite torturous to me. But then again, i realized that some people may appear to be irritating, full of themselves, arrogant. Look again, they may be the people who truly cares about you. Whether they are being hypocritical or not, i don't know.
i've had a huge quarrel with my sister yesterday. Firstly, it started out with a a printer. I used the printer yesterday and i somehow had some problems with it and the paper got stucked in the printer. I tried to resolve the matter, but anyway i failed. So i wanted to leave it and wait till someone can actually fix it for me. Then unluckily, my sis was the next person who used it. And then she had problems with it, directly because of me. Duh. She removed all my stuffs around the printer and carry on fixing it. Then when she's done with it, she continued what she was doing. I was abit irritated at the mess on my table, so i told her to pack my stuffs and put it back to the original places where she'd removed it from. Then i got a huge scolding from her for being unreasonable and calculative. That i was actually the one who made the shit outta the printer, and then she cleared the mess and i actually expected her to clear up the ' small' mess she made on my already messy table. So i started scolding her, like she need not fix the printer, afterall i didnt ask her to. And this small trivial matter landed up to a whole load of shit.
She started criticizing me. Like i'm nothing but a school dropout. Using my mum's hard-earned money going to a private school with sky-high school fees. And she started comparing. Things like she's smarter. I didn't really mind all these. Till she said one phrase, ' your forever UNDER MY FEET!' No doubt, i was truly demoralized in split seconds and i started to blow up. I said, ' since you hate me so much, don't use my bags, don't wear my clothes anymore since you think your so clever.' I have nothing else to pinpoint at her except these, because my sis seldom spends money on fashion stuffs and accesories and everything. I don't know, but i hate it when people think that they're so clever and people are never on par with the highly things that ONLY they themselves can see or reach. Then i told her, so what if your cleverer and smarter than me? It may not be the most important thing on earth.. AND at least i don't go around being a relief teacher and come home crying when i can't outtalk a certain student in school. I hate it when my sis cries over things like these. Things which may seem so small to me. Whatever.. but anyway i hope she's feeling better, afterall im the main cause of what have happened.
I went drinking with Winson, Alex and Justin 2 days ago. Alex and i went to relax and somehow try to forget the last bad relationship we had. I was almost almost drunk. And those who actually know me, i've never been drunk. Not that i'm a good drinker, but because i know my limits. But again, i hate the feeling of losing my control in certain things. Winson's been a real good listening ear and a good preacher. But anyway, if anyone of you are reading this, i've had a good time that day although i was really really tired in school. Haha..
Been reading Memoirs Of A Geisha. I really love the book. Its quite a nice book. Simple english used but nevertheless, entertaining! haha...
Met new friends. Gary and John. Gary is a real nice person. Hahaha.. john's nice too.. but he's too full of shit.. hahaha..
anyway.. im OUT.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006 @1:25 PM
I was almost knocked down by a car today. Despite the green man shining luminously at my eye, smiling at me. The car that almost banged unto me was only less than 3cm away from my petite body compared to it. It would have been judgement day for me now if i was a little closer to the car, or the driver hit the brake half a second slower. Or maybe, probably i'll be in an burning inferno now, since i've committed countless of sins since the day i was born.
These 2 days have been quite a challenge for me to get pass, but i did anyway. Not gonna do anything stupid to disappoint anybody. Especially when i know many out there actually care for me. I feel that i've neglected alot of things in life. Especially my friends and family. Why am i depressed these 2 days? Not gonna state them here, I just wanna keep them to myself.
Kelvin have been a real great buddy to me. He has been my main pillar of strength to move on for the past two days. Well, the fact is that i knew him since i was freakin' primary 5, i can still remember vividly. I met him in an IRC channel #a1. hahahaha. can't believe it. He's sucha great friend and he's always been there for me whenever im down. Never failed to cheer me up whenever i'm feeling down. Well, ups and downs, part and parcels of life.
Pampered myself today. Bought myself hairclips and 2 shoes. Bought those clips with Yvonne, then i went over to far east for those shoes. Love them! =)
I've been such a good girl. Despite my bad fever, i still went to school. Shivering continuously for the whole damn physics lesson. Other than that, i bought my literature texts. I bothered to take a freakin' bus to kino to get them. Though most of them are outta stock. Wonder how am i gonna pass literature without them. Other than that again, i actually changed my bedsheet and mopped the floor, packed up my stuffs and packed up those clothes of mine which i know i wouldn't wear them again. Mummy is definitely gonna praise me! haha.
I was smoking at my kitchen window just now, and someone's cigarette ash was actually flicked directly onto my middle finger. Damn you. Asshole. Sick bastard.
I think i'll be back to my music school really soon. I need to get back to what i'm really really interested in again. Afterall, i really like music and i'm a self-proclaimed musician. Whatever. Haven't touched my violin in ages. Gonna practice later.
As for now, i'm gonna mug. Right now. Tata~
